Whoops, I Forgot.

Whoopies! I fell.

I forgot.

Oh, whoops!

Darn.

Uh oh!

Oopsie Daisy!

All expressions. Imagine them being said with such gentleness and LOVE. And warmth. And even with some joy and laughter. Not a big deal.

What if you were learning how to balance on a balance board and a coach told you a trick. And you started to balance better as you applied their tips. You go to the coach next time and then you keep falling. You realize you forgot to apply the tip. Squeeze the belly button or whatever it might be.

"Oh whoops! I forgot"

And then you proceed.

How about if this is applied to us when we are working on changing habits. Not giving excuses, but not punishing. Punishing does not work! I can verify for you that letting your inner bully yell at you, is not an effective way for change. Hopefully I can save you some years of your inner military captain yelling at you for 'should have knowing better-what is wrong with you' energy. It is not needed for change.

YOU FORGOOOT. You were scared. You were uncertain. You were lonely, and you have X amount of years of a survival mechanism operating your system, so it is not a matter of logical learning to stop at a red light and tie your shoe. It SEEMS like it should be which is where the self punishment comes into play. However, it may take longer than you want. Longer than I want. My mind will keep on going to punishment because that is the default, and then I get to step in and invite a new energy.

I have the option, and so do you. I don't want to continue with this harsh punisher, and so I am doing something about it. Even writing this is part of the therapeutic healing re wiring process for me.

The first step is going to be calling in the image or the essence of the most unconditional loving essence I can foster. If I need to accompany it with image or sound or video, so be it. Like the type of unconditional love that is just so rich. Like when a toddler does something they shouldn't, but they are just so dang cute and so unaware of how cute they are, and they give you a hug and they aren't holding a grudge with you and you can't stay mad at them because it is impossible. That is the vibe.

The vibe is that God isn't holding a grudge at me, I was holding a bat over my own head. I was. Not now. Now, I am letting God hold me, I am holding me, we are all on the same page. God was on board all along, it was the part of me that thought the only appropriate consequence would be to berate myself... but With at least ten years of that practice I am now retiring from it. SO LONG! Farewell. Hasta La Vista.

Welcoming the new compassionate forgiveness. It would sound like this.

Annie!!! You are so wonderful!! The amount of wonderful that you are cannot even be expressed. You don't have to even do anything, I just love you, your essence. I just love you and you are an absolute delight. You are doing so good and I totally see the steps you are taking to learn and grow and be kind and change your heart...this is not easy!! Annie, it is not a big deal, you are NOT doomed. You are not stuck in a trap, and you are not getting in a bad spiral. You are great! Annie girl, all you were trying to do was to eat a real meal because you had some real trauma in your past about eating a protein bar and calling it a meal. You also were probably trying to prevent being hungry at 11 PM which you did, thank you! I understand you wish you didn't feel acid reflux and it is uncomofrable for you. Let me be with it with you.