Hi! It is November 18th. The week before Thanksgiving. Wow so much has shifted. Today was an un ordinary day. Although I don't really know what an ordinary day is for me anyway. But I got my hair colored and cut yesterday and it was a GOOD MOVE. very guided. Thanks to Joey he did amazing he practically read my mind for being so bad at communicating what I wanted since I didn't know what I wanted. And he loves cutting which is important because a good cut is not easy to find. It makes a diff. Yay for Level 3 stylists.
So I also did some online shopping lately which is not a normal behavior for me. I'm normally like well that money could be used here or here or here. But here's the thing there comes a point when you go to your closet and everything is outdated and old. Not everything I am dramatic and that is not something to complain about. But this right here is the reason why I don't buy clothes much because I instantly judge myself for being ungrateful when there are people in other countries who probably rotate between three shirts. So my mind usually spins into that and I end up not buying.
But then, I don't live there. I think often of "be in the world but not of it." A lot of things aren't inherently bad on their own as they are. Our intentions, reasons, and meanings we make things are really what things are about. In other words it's not like God is up there with a calculator and at the end of life he's gonna say well, all this stuff you bought was ok, but this shirt was unnecessary and you should have put that into savings. But that is what I think I imagine.
Also I want to pray more for specific things I want help with. That is not like a huge habit of mine and I don't know why it's not my initial thing. I have got to set up a system to implement a better prayer habit, repentance habit, and study habit. It's currently more like if I have time for it. I think replacing habits is one of the most effective methods. Or habit stacking. But instead of looking at my phone I could ya know roll on my knees and pray. Or just pray. Or read the scriptures. It's a switch.
Well I have my Christmas elf rehearsal next Monday and my costume has arrived. Just waiting on the boots. I am looking forward to the opportunity to be immersed in Christmas cheer once again! Oh ho ho ho it will be fun.
Ya know things are looking up here in Dulac. I really am getting over this idea that I can't say anything cause I don't know what the whole thing is. It's not about what I say anyway it's about my spitrit. I am committed to feeling amazing because life does get to be fantastic and breathtaking and fun. My life gets to be all those things and more. My life gets to be a dazzling work of art full of surprises greater than I could have imagined.
Everything is ALWAYS working out for me. God is on my side. God wants me to experience tremendous breakthroughs and joys. God is supporting me. God desires me to experience a new level of me, a change of heart. God is all for it. I am not going to get in my own way, and when I do I will recognize it and get back in alignment. I am absolutely committed to becoming stronger, to increasing my income with ease, and to become more and more of my true self. Amen.
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